Im still here

Just so you know, this is my special blog. At the moment I’m finnishing my course and starting up my own buisness together with hubby. I’m so exited. Although again I’m behind with letters, never catching up and feeling worse then ever about, but I hope you all understand that I need to do this for myself. I’m happily waiting for a time to the painrelief clinic we got. I do hope to get a time soon. Finally I’m gettibg help. Time is late and I will try to write more tomorrow. Hugs

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In pain

Hi everyone.

My body is in pain. Loads of pain 😥
Time here is 3.14 and I cant sleep, woke up and just had to go to the toilet, then I was hungry and I cant walk. We did wheelchair rugby in school yesterday and I had loads of fun…..I laughed so much……cant say I’m laughing now though. Well going to try to sleep, Henrik is working tomorrow so I need to be fit for fight.

My plans for mums celebration is going well, 59 years, wish she was with me, but in heart I know she is. 3 years will be passing in nov and I miss her so much. Family will meet and go to the grave, then we’ll meet up for smörgåstårta, my mums favourite. Will be nice, she will love it. Everyone except dad will be here. I made a group on facebook, an aunt of mine already made me sad, saying she wants another photo of mum, a nicer cause she cant recognize her. Well the photo I used was at Des baptism and that is how my kids remember her, that is how she’s been since 2008 and even with the scars, my mum was a beauty, a wonderful person who ALWAYS put family first!!!!!!

Gosh its been ages.

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Here are some pictures from our easter.
The big Aladin box I won in a contest. Yay!!! Things here are ok. I had a great week, been cleaning kitchen, doing homework, but then yesterday came the tirednes again. Phew. I’m now having a big project to do for school. Wish me luck. Hugs to you all.

Getting better

Finally I’m getting all better again. I’m on new pills for my depression which are already working great. It’s lovely. Lately we havnt done much, Wilona has all her activities to go to. Busy girl haha. I’m slowly getting trough my pile of letters, I’m learning how to knit to and reading quite a lot.
Today its fathers day here in Sweden and Wilona made her handprints on a t-shirt fo Henrik. Now they are off to his brother to have a bath in the Jazucci, while me and Des are trying to have a cozy movie time.

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Scarf I made for Wilona

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Letter from Malaysia with smal gifts in it, a christmascard swap and stickersswap

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Wilona and Des made elks.

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The title of my life

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Well what am I suppose to write today. I’m down…..I really am….dont ask me why, I have no clue. My tears just keep coming. I miss my mum, I miss my family in SriLanka……I just miss it all. God how I miss my cousins…..I would do anything for one of Trevors jokes right now….I miss my girly chat with Oni. I miss it all….most of all I miss my mums arms. It feels as if I’m going insane…..I forget stuff, missplace things and my head is going all blur. My thoughts are also going yo Henriks cousin and his family….be
strong, the pictures made me cry. And please help me pray for him. Here are some cute pictures though…..until next time. KEEP IT REAL AND KEEP PRAYING!!!!!

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I’m all out

My body cant stand it anymore. I’m fed up off all the pain and I know I have to live with it for the rest off my life. It’s just a bad day…I just found out Henrik cousin is doing really bad with his cancer to. He has been fighting for about a year and will leave a family, wife and a 5-year old boy behind. Sometimes I just cant imagine Gods will, we can just pray that he will help us find the cure for cancer. Is it just me or does it feel as more and more ppl die from this horrible decese. Well back to our own life. Kids were at daycare and Henrik went working the evening so during the day he was home taking good care of me. In the afternoon my dear friend Maria came with her son Albin and after coffee and cake she draged us out for a while. I’m so thankful that my friends help me to get out with the kids. I dont go out on my own with them if I’m in pain. Autum, winter and spring are horrible months. Kids were on the field having loads of fun

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Albin is in the back haha

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For once my two brats are friends and nit fighting.

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Yesterday I had a stressfull day at work. Had to follow one of our ladies to hospital for a new cast on her leg and this got me late home. We made it in time to church though for Wilonas kidgroup and this id what she made

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A lovely box.

This is how well my hubby looks after me
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I cant find a better man. Love him and the kids he gave me a lot. Time is midnight and I’m still working on my letter to Helene in Sweden.

Hugs to everyone